DiscoverME

‘Life is about revision’ –Ivan Deva

I am blessed, to be a part of the first batch of #DiscoverYOU.

#DiscoverYOU is a project or should I call it a ‘movement’, started by these amazing people: @ReneCC @Donipriliandi @ikosasih @onlyricky and some more great people, who gathered together in a #ImpactFactory.

This project is coaching people like me, to discover themselves thus to discover their strength ( what you ENJOY the most- a PASSION).

It has never been an easy journey for me –the last 2 weeks or my whole life, to discover who I really am, to really be honest of what I feel.

To FEEL, is not anymore an easy task for me. I don’t know when was the alarm switched off. Lately it’s hard for me to feel what I love. But I still can sense the feeling of what I don’t like. I use that to guide me in the journey.

Saturday, June 30 2012. Last day of the session. We had to make our passion statement. Camera was recording as we were talking. I was still confused. I was not sure. I did not even know what I said to the camera. I guess, I digest the whole thing slower, including the feeling. At that point, I couldn’t really translate my feeling in words.

I didn’t see my self in both of my passion statement and my Next Big things. I came home with a mixed feelings. I felt as if I failed it. So I spent my weekend to reflect on my journey. Not just the 2 weeks, but in my whole life.

Yes, I am blessed with many talents. I can draw, write, speak and think creatively. But I don’t know which one of those that I really enjoy doing. May be all of them. May be some of them.

But from all these years, I know what brings me agitation or let me use this term: ‘Holy Discontent’.

It ‘s a holy discontent for me, every time friends or cousins or colleagues come to me to share about their lives, saying they don’t know where to go or what to do. And as they are talking, I can see what they really love doing.

It ‘s a holy discontent for me, every time I see young people waste their time doing the things they don’t like doing while they know what they enjoy doing. But they just think of it as a hobby, not as a hint of God’s plans in their lives.

It ‘s a holy discontent for me, to see young people living in the comfort zones, giving in to the status quo by saying there are no choices for them. Fuck it. Choices are always out there. I did make choices, I got lost, I fell down and broken but I got up again.

I wish I were born with beautiful voice. I wish I could have magic in my body so I can move my hips and dance. I wish I had the skill in playing musical instruments. I wish I could enjoy doing sport. I’m not feeling sorry for my self. If they are not for me, then they are for other people.

But I just wish, it was obvious for me. I wish, back then, I had a coach who can help me, books I can read or even a speaker who share these things.

How I wish, there are no more young people stuck in the wrong shoes. No more singers stuck in the dancers shoes or dancers who think they should sing. I’ve been in those shoes. They bit me. I hardly walked nor ran.

Yes, I was lost but now I am found.

So I guess these are my passion statements:

1.     I feel alive every time I can help or encourage young people (who concern about their lives) with my sharing, coaching, or even my writings to discover them selves, to help them realize what they really enjoy doing. And life, starts from there.

2.     I feel alive every time I tell stories, either by speaking, writings or moving visual.

3.     I feel alive every time I’m thinking and throwing ideas in a brainstorm or group discussion.

And these are my Next Big Things:

1.     One day, I want to have big convention of young people to share & coach them about discoveringTHEM. Lot’s of ROCKSTARS will be there, from different kind of industries, to show them that the choices are out there. Then they can go back home and be agents of change in their communities.

But for now, I just want more stages to share and more time to help/coach people around me.

2.     Execute/shoot my short film. It’s been one of my ultimate dreams.      Hopefully before the end of this year.

3.     This may sound crazy but I want to make a musical about discovering your passion. It’s about a person who hates his jobs and tortured by every Monday. One day, he’s got an accident and he’s in a coma. Then the journey of discovering him begins.

Anyone wants to help? J

Oh, what about the book that I bought which had to represent my passion statement, on that last session? Ummh… It’s OK, but not as brilliant or provoking as I thought. But the thing that I learnt from that book is the simplicity in telling things. It is, important.

And I want to thank my awesome coaches:

Rene Suhardono- My coach, rockstar and a friend.

Ivan Deva- My coach in DiscoveringYOU. I learn how to be humble from this guy.

Ricky Setiawan- He is a brother to me and also a coach. He knows how it feels to read my long long email, haha.

Doni Priliandi- He is actually my first coach. I met him first before I met the other three.

I am blessed. I am grateful. And the journey begins.

Hakuna Matata.